A lot has gone on in the past week. I was so scared to go to Florida for Christmas this year. Without going into detail, my family is a bit complicated and can be uncomfortable at times. Awkward is a good word. My sister and I feel very out of place frequently. I am also realizing that I am pretty different from them in terms of my lifestyle. I know the fact that I am now happy staying in Arizona bothers them a bit because its so far away. But I truly feel like the real me that I've been waiting to discover.
My friendships have strengthened and grown. One person recently has become a great and surprising friend to have around. I use to feel very awkward around this person but now that I know myself it is so much more comfortable. Their wisdom is a great blessing. Hopefully I will have some positive effect on their life as well.
I am healing. Really truly healing. My weird friendship with the ex actually helped me heal because I saw issues more clearly. I care about this person but I cannot trust them. They do not know their own self and I have uncovered more lies. I just don't see a way of going back to where we once were.
And now the time away has healed me. I am not bitter about cancelling a wedding. Because the next wedding will truly be about "we" and I can't wait for that to come around.
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