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i am a badass

I said a bad word. whoops.

I've been feeling pretty awesome about my workouts these days. My upper body is absolutely the strongest its ever been. My legs are getting there but will take a bit more time. Remember when I said I wasn't quite the old me jumping around on boxes and killing it during a workout yet?

Well I'm back.

I was already pretty darn proud of my workout this morning. We're talking box jumps, box combos, plyo squats and finishing out with speedy super sets of deadlifts and squats. Killer... but seriously feeling accomplished at the end. But to make it even better this guy came up to me during my speed deadlifts. Now, normally I get pretty irritated by guys trying to make comments to me during deadlifts. Common I know what I look like aqnd why you're trying to talk to me. At least I wasn't in my usually spandex capris this time. But for once, this was sincere.

He commented that he sees me in the gym all the time doing some insane workouts and he doesn't usually see women in that gym doing workouts that intense and athletic. (let me interject a moment... we're at lifetime fitness, where the women are more worried about what they look like during the workouts then what they get out of it) He asked what I was training for exactly.

My response (always): "I want to be badass"

He laughed. "Well you already are. Keep it up." and walked away.

Freaking awesome. I AM BADASS!

smile.

{i have one incredible friend}

"Find the person that is going to tell you the truth, even if it means upsetting you.
That is your real friend."

Friendships can come out of some unexpected places. Some are an immediate connection from similar interest, and some take time to build. This one took time to build, but is absolutely worth it. Someone was looking out for me when I was blessed with this friend. They may be guarded and at times hard to read, but they have always told me the truth, and yes at times it has hurt.

There is something absolutely incredible to be said for a person who cares for you so much that they literally smack you upside the head with the truth on how you are acting and living your life, in order to help you. Especially when you're dealing with me: I'm feisty, defensive and easily irritated. You would think I'm talking about a friend who has known me for years right? I definitely have a few of those, but no, they are pretty rarely in my life these days because I live so far away. This is one of my newest friends. I am so blessed to have this friend in my life.

It was brought to my attention that I seem depressed and negative lately. That I'm wrapped up in the past and it's bringing me down. That I am the cause of my unhappiness. That I've been in a "perpetual cycle" for months. And that I also deserved to be happy.

After I was horrible to this person in response, getting defensive and brushing them off, it hit me. They were so so so right. And he is officially one of the most incredible friends I will ever have.

Thanks to him and his honesty, I'm turning the page. I'm choosing happiness. I went to the farmer's market, enjoyed the cows, made butternut squash soup... and beamed.

And this is just day one.